it's the privilege of youth

Which Boondock Saint are you

Murphy

You're Murphy, the slightly younger MacManus. You are often mistaken for being too childish, but you have a calm, sweet side that can be blocked out by your playfulness. You can tend to be a little more serious, despite your sereotype, but are afraid to have fun (obviously).You have a smug, knowing smile that nearly always acompanies the gleam in your blue eyes, especially when you're scheming something. If you had a super power, it would be invisibility so you could blend in to the background and reveal yourself just at the end of your best prank. You are often a mastermind, even though getting cght can be just as interesting. Through you can be considered a goof, you do care and take care of your friends and family You are not afraid to protect your own and would do anything for them.

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This is not intended as a useless post, nor is this post written under the objective of showing to the world that I got Murphy Macmanus in 2 quizzes at the same time which also happened to finished loading at the same time.

Okay, anyway.

Bagaimana gw mulai mendefinisiikan4 bulan terakhir? Sedih? Gak juga. Oke, pasti ada ups and downs nya lah ya, mulai dari gw depresi gara2 ada sesuatu hal yang menyangkut kesejahteraan organisasi diaman gw ambil bagian dan ujung-ujungnya semua merasa bahwa keterpourukan itu salah semuanya, terus gw sempet mental breakdown kemaren (gak usah cerita, it involved a jackload of biological saltwater) abis kemping.

That...didn't really make any sense.

Truth is, I don't feel like I'm making any sense anymore. I feel like everything around me is going bleak, dull, lifeless, out of the house and into a foggy dimension of nothing. I don't feel the way I did some months back. I got this funny black feeling inside me that feels to me like an insect eating up what's left of my mind. I dunno, it's hard to define. I didn't even know how to begin in the first place.

Ya know, it's kinda like being A for a minute, then you change to being B the next, and then suddenly you're forced to being C, but then you realized that's not what you want and then you become D. It's hectic inside out, and it's been scaring me for months now. I don't feel like I used to. I'm not me. I've broken my vow of staying a kid, staying young, staying free. I'm not free, now I know. I've been confined from the start. I'm confined to the believe that being a kid makes the world a heck of a lot easier to handle, so as to not burden me with such things known to me as grown-up stuff. But then as I go, I began to realize that by staying a kid means strapping myself to a stroller and watching all the other kids becoming what the wanted to become. And that's sickening, because all i can do is dream, but growing up is the realization of that dream, the actual execution.

Nothing, really, I'm just frightened.

I haven't een able to remember my dreams for a pretty long while now. I don't know, but it somehow became a kind of revelation for me, ya know, it's telling me something but I just can't get a grip of what it is. It's right in front of me but it's covered in mud and whatnot.

Also, I can't help to notice that I'm abandoning everything I've been fighting for.

Maybe I'm just hungry.

And now all of my classmates are fussing and squeaking over The Hunger Games just because the movie just came out and everyone's watching it and everyone's reading the book and babbling around the halls talking about Gale and Peeta and be all "OMG have you read the books yet?" at me and I'm like, "I did two years ago, dumbasses." And now I'm depressed because of Spooks and all the emotion it's emitting and the fact that I've just run out of my first ever bag of Famous Amos Macadamia Chocolate Chips just made me go

HEY LOOKIE IM USIN GIFS AS EMOTES LIKE I USED TO WUZZAH WELCOME BACK MEEEEEEEE

Forgive me.

I must go,

The toilet seat is getting kinky waiting for my butt.

Bye now.

Well, ya know, for now.

Label: high school, just me being me, Life