- @ Jumat, 13 September 2013

Jujur aja, salah satu alasan paling kuat gue mendadak posting jam segini tanggal segini di waktu seperti ini adalah karena tadi di Hanamasa gue nenggak ENAM gelas kopi susu dan sekarang gue capek tapi bukan jenis capek yang biasa didapati tepat sebelum kita ketiduran di depan komputer.

Perhatikan ejaan "gue" yang gue pake sekarang aalah "g-u-e" dan bukan "g-w" kayak biasa. Ceritanya mau menghormati ejaan Betawi yang baik dan benar.

GUe juga nggak tau kesambit apaan mendadak mau posting lagi padahal biasanya (pasang muka curcol) kalau ada sejumput hasrat pengen ngeblog pasti kebalap hasrat numblr yang jauh lebih besar. Tapi gue ngerasa posting kali ini /agak/ perlu. Entah kenapa. Apa karena gue merasa blog ini ditelantarkan dan gue kasihan karena gue udah ngabisin entah berapa jam masa pramremaja gue ngedit-ngedit HTML dan bikin posting-posting yang nggak dibaca orang, atau gue cuma mau mendokumentasikan momen. Tapi yang ini perlu. Gue mau mendokumentasikan momen. Gue mau mendokumentasikan malam ini. Dan yang paling penting, gue mau mendokumentasikan, atau lebih tepatnya merangkum, beberapa hari kebelakang.

Oke, jadi sebetulnya alsan gue lama nggak posting cukup mediocre. Gue masuk kuliah *tiup terompet*, kemudian OSPEK (atau kerennya di FIB PSA MABIM), dilanjutkan dengan kuliah yang dimulai tanggal 2 September kemaren disambi kegiatan-kegiatan (gue ikut 2 UKM dan tanpa sadar masukin 6 kartu nama ke 6 kotak pendaftaran BO maupun BSO fakultas. Tepok tangannya, saudara-saudara?), disambi lagi sama OSPEK jurusan yang pada dasarnya cuma ngumpulin tanda tangan angkatan 2013, 2012, 2011, 2010, dan sejumlah alumni tapi karena ribet ketemu jadi nggak kelar-kelar, dan akhirnya TADAAA terlantarlah blog ini. Mungkin selama ini cuma alsan gue ngeblog yang nggak jelas.

.........................................oke sampai saat ini I'm not making any sense.


Jadi gini nih, kawan-kawan sekalian. Beberapa hari kebelakang gue merasa Allah SWT ngasih gue premonisi-premonisi kecil yang mengindikasikan bahwa hidup gue lagi berotasi secara radikal. Gimana ya ngejelasinnya?

Tadi gue ke acara temen gue. Semacam farewell party gitu, karena lusa dia mau kuliah ke luar negri. Nah, dari kami bertujuh yang dateng ke makan-makan tersebut, salah satu dari kami ternyata dateng dengan membawa, ehm, sebuah berita.

Bisa dikatakan berita tersebut cukup mengguncang kami semua.

Dan waktu gue bilang mengguncang, maksud gue mengguncang. Pernah liat gue syok? Kaget sampe nggak bisa ngomong? Sampe harus diem dulu di kursi, menerawang dengan pandangan kosong, berpikir tapi nggak tau mikir apa, tapi otak mendadak semrawut sampe lu harus tarik nafas dan minum? Persis kayak gitu gue waktu dikasih liat berita tersebut.

 sebut saja ini terkait sebuah ikatan

Gue kaget. Jujur. Gue selama ini berpikir itu merupakan hal buat orang dewasa. Inget nggak betapa keramatnya dua kata tersebut buat gue cuma beberapa taun yang lalu? Nggak usah beberapa taun deh, beberapa bulan? Sumpah, sampe tadi malem gue masih menganggap diri gue sebagai seorang remaja. Titik. Seorang remaja umur 18 di dunia yang super luas yang masih terlalu sibuk mikirin gimana caranya guebisa mesen Tales From Year Zero tanpa harus mengeluarkan sepeserpun duit. Gue nggak dewasa, gue nggak pernah dewasa, dan gue nggak pernah mau jadi orang dewasa. Tapi kemudian malam ini terjadi. Minggu ini terjadi. Tahun ini terjadi. Gue ulang tahun yang ke-18. Gue dapet KTP. Gue lulus SMA. Gue masuk kuliah. Semua dalam kurun waktu 3 bulan. Salah satu temen terdekat gue, yang selama ini gue percaya masuk ke bola kehidupan gue yang begitu tertutup sampe nyokap pun masih meraba-raba nyari jalan masuk kedalamnya, sekolah ke Jepang. Dan kemudian, satu lagi temen terdekat gue, yang udah berjasa mengenalkan gue ke banyak hal, yang udah berjasa ngajarin gue mengalah, ngajarin gue buat banyak ketawa, ngajarin gue berteman, yah, bilang aja dia /lepas/. Sementara itu, dia cuma ketawa-ketiwi, santai banget, kayak ini cuma kejadian biasa yang biasa terjadi di kehidupan seorang anak muda, cuma sebuah bagian dari siklus kehidupan seorang manusia. Dan yang ngagetin bukan cuma fakta bahwa dia willingly bilang iya, tapi penerimaan gue secara emosional yang begitu....nggak nyantai.

Dan akhirnya gue sadar. Lewat mereka berdua Allah SWT pengen gue dewasa.

Gue sama temen gue satu lagi, karena tingkat kenaifan kami hampir sama, liat-liatan nggak percaya. Kemudian kami berdua tarik nafas, meditasi, nenangin diri, diam. Karena nggak pernah sampai ke benak kanak-kanak kami bahwa salah satu orang-orang tersebut, mereka yang sudah menetapkan jalan hidup di usia muda, adalah salah satu dari teman kami sendiri. Nggak pernah terpikir oleh kami bahwa kami bakal jadi mereka para orang dewasa yang datang memakai baju formal, baris dan salam-salaman. Konsep tersebut asing. Asing sekali.

Rasanya baru kemaren lho, gue MOS. Terong balado. TO. Bintama. PDP. Sekret. Palabsky. Nakshatragana. The Bright Light. XB. XI IPS 2. XII IPS 2. Lorong ruang 5-6 lantai dua yang mojok. Syamsuri. Renci. Labzine. Prom. Wisuda.

Gue nggak merasa kehilangan. Bukan posisi gue untuk merasa kehilangan. Cuma...aneh aja. Saat lu sadar bahwa lu bukan lagi anak-anak, tapi ide menjadi dewasa itu masih kerasa nggak familiar di lidah lu, saat lu liat jauh menembus KTP lu dan mendadak tersentak, "Wow, gue orang dewasa." Selama ini gue kayak Peter Pan. Gue menolak habis tumbuh dewasa. Tapi malam ini gue sadar, kalau gue nggak tumbuh dewasa, gue nggak hidup.

Tadi siang, waktu mau foto buat formulir Senbud, kalung keramat gue dari sahabat gue putus talinya. Entah ini pertanda apa, tapi ue yang biasanya nggak percaya takhayul mendadak mikir; segalanya nggak mungkin terjadi gitu aja. Nggak ada yang namanya kebetulan.

Jadi gue mulai mikir, oke, gue mesti ngelepas masa lalu gue secara keseluruhan. Mulai lagi. Gue bukan Sita Zahra Matarani umur 15 tahun yang hatinya cuma dibagi ke film-film scifi, Supernatural, dan Garrett Hedlund. Gue bukan Sita Zahra Matarani anak ansos yang kalau ngumpul sama temen-temennya kerjaannya mojok sambil dengerin lagu tanpa membuat usaha apapun untuk kenalan (fakta bahwa gue introvert mungkin mendukung, tapi ini sifat, dan selama gue bisa manage rasanya gue bakalan baik2 aja).

Dan gue sekarang harus belajar untuk nggak mikirin orang lain. Selama ini gue, mungkin karena trauma waktu SD dan SMP susah berteman, jadi mikirin banget temen-temen deket gue sampe gue khawatir sendiri tanpa mereka tahu gue khawatir karena gue bukan tipe orang yang gampang mengepkspresikan perasaan jadi mereka ngeliat gue sebagai orang superwoles yang kerjaannya cengar cengir dan tidur. Nggak. Gue selalu mikir. Gue khawatir, gue ngasih saran, gue nasihatin, gue bahkan punya segudang nasihat, gue peduli. Tapi akhirnya gue harus mundur dan membiarkan mereka milih jalan hidup mereka sendiri. Mau ke luar negeri atau ke pelukan orang lain. Dan yang penting adalah mereka temen gue, dan itu udah cukup.

Maksudnya, yang penting kami inget satu sama lain, kan?

DAN, salah satu poin terpenting dari tumbuh dewasa buat gue adalah secara terus-menerus mengingatkan diri sendiri bahwa gue bukan orang lain. Gue nggak perlu merasa apuitis kalau tweet-tweet temen gue sangat puitis, dengan kata-kata sinkron nan indah ala Sapardi Djoko Damono. Tingkat dedikasi gue terhadap fandom nggak perlu sampai sehebat temen gue yang begitu cinta dengan fandomnya. Nnggak perlu cinta Shakespeare kalau emang nggak suka. Nggak perlu sesupel orang tergaul di angkatan, yang penting lu tau cara berteman.

Gue bukan mereka yang gaul. Gue bukan mereka yang puitis. Gue bukan mereka para calon pemimpin. Gue bukan mereka yang merupakan diri mereka sendiri.

Posting ini agak aneh. Mungkin nggak nyambung. Tapi yaudah lah ya. Gue udah belajar banyak dari cuma satu malam. Dan malam ini adalah salah satu malampaling berharga selama hidup gue.


udah jam satu bro ah tidur woy tidur

Label: a series of fortunate events, diary, this is way too goddamn sentimental man i'm sorry

Requested by HapaYaa on dA - who the internet thinks people think I am. Basically. @ Kamis, 11 Juli 2013

 HapaYaa made me do it .

 WATASHI NO PERSONALITAAYYY

Unflappable

You are not a slave to your emotions. It takes a lot to upset or unnerve you. That's why you're a good person to have around in a crisis.
You don't let it all hang out, which means that those around you often don't know the pressures you're under or what you're going through. You're not the kind of person people run from in a crisis.

Introspective

You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.
You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.

Aesthetic

You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.
You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Competent

You strive to master everything you undertake. You tend to learn quickly and do not shy away from challenges.
You are not a "que sera sera" type of person, nor do you go easy on yourself when attempting to master a new skill or get a job done.

Original

You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.
You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.

Curious

You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.
You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.

Solitary

You are a private person, not very comfortable in a big group, and view excessive socializing as a waste of time.
You not prefer hanging out with others to spending time alone; you do not tend to feel at home in a crowded room, club, stadium, or auditorium.

Intellectual

You are thoughtful, rational, and comfortable in the world of ideas. People find you interesting to talk to. You're the living embodiment of the saying "You learn something new every day." In general, those with a high score on the "intellectual" trait are employed in such fields as teaching and research, and are enthusiastic about reading, foreign films, and classical music.
You do not avoid abstract conversation, experimenting with new ideas, or studying new things. It bores you to stick to the straight and narrow of what you already know.

Pragmatic

You have found that people with sad stories are usually looking for attention or have brought their problems upon themselves. Therefore, you don't obsess about what others are thinking or feeling; if they have something important to tell you, you figure, they'll just come out and say it.
You do not feel the need to always know what people around you are thinking and feeling, and you don't encourage them to turn to you when they have problems.

Loose

You feel that a clean, orderly desk is the sign of a person who doesn't have enough to do. Schedules and "to do" lists feel stifling; you thrive on a sense that anything goes, and know that the world won't end if you don't clean up after finishing a job.
You don't need to know that everything is in its place; it is not empowering to you to feel that the world around you is neat and organized. Mowing down every item on your "to do" list, every day, does not bring you joy.

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Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking. 

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You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.  

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Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

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Nosy Level: 60%
You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.

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The Artist

You love freedom and want to follow your heart's desires. You might not be at your best when dealing with other people. Once you are given the opportunity to work your chosen way, your gift will shine. A tip for you is not to concentrate too much on your own work, but widen your focus and consider the opinions of other people.

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Here is the analysis:

1. Your future friend: You have a big sister confidence and leadership. So you friends are mostly vulnerable and always need your help. You can't resist helping these people and eventually you all will become good friends.
2. Your travel plan: In the future, you will often take overseas trips especially to modernized countries. You will get to explore Europe and North Asia like you always wanted.
3. Your future financial status: You are very good at saving and sometimes you are even stingy. The reason you want your teeth to grow longer is because when you can't eat, you can save even more on food. Once your money is deposited in the bank, there's no way that you will withdraw it out just to spend on luxuries.
4. The last period of your life: You can't stand being a lonely old lady so you will spend the last days of you life being a kind loving grandparent so that the kids will love to have you around.

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 You are serious and hard working. You believe that rules are not meant to be broken. You are respectable but certainly not flexible. Sometimes people think you are stubborn.

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 Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person.

You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes.

When it comes to love, you shut yourself off. It's difficult to win your heart because you have decided to keep your feelings deep inside. You always have plans on your mind. This might cause a lot of stress if things don't go the way you expect. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

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Your Working Style

You use you thinking to look for the principles underlying the sensory information that comes into awareness. As a result, you are logical, analytical, and objectively critical. You are not likely to be convinced by anything but reasoning based on solid facts. While you like to organize facts and data, you prefer not to organize situations or people unless you must for the sake of your work. You can be intensely but quietly curious. Socially you may be rather shy except with your best friends. You sometimes become so absorbed with one of your interests that you can ignore of lose track of external circumstances.
You are somewhat quiet and reserved, although you can be quite talkative on a subject where you can apply your great storehouse of information. In everyday activities you are adaptable, except when one of your ruling principles is violated, at which point you stop adapting. You are good with your hands, and like sports and the outdoors, or anything that provides a wealth of information for your senses.
If you have developed your powers of observing the world around you, you will have a firm grasp on the realities of any situation, and show a great capacity for the important and unique facts of a situation. You are interested in how and why things work and are likely to be good at applied science, mechanics, or engineering. If you do not have technical or mechanical interests, you often use your talents to bring order out of unorganized facts. This ability can find expression in law, economics, marketing, sales, securities, or statistics.
You may rely so much on the logical approach of thinking that you overlook what other people care about and what you yourself care about. You may decide that something is not important, just because it isn't logical to care about it. If you always let your thinking suppress your feeling values, your feeling may build up pressure and find expression in inappropriate ways. Although good at analyzing what is wrong, you sometimes find it hard to express appreciation. But if you try, you will find it helpful on the job as well as in personal relationships.
You are in some danger of putting off decisions or of failing to follow through. One of your outstanding traits is economy of effort. This trait is an asset if you judge accurately how much effort is needed; then you do what the situation requires without fuss or lost motion. If you cannot judge accurately, or if you just don't bother, then nothing of importance gets done.

Label: all hail glasses, asoy, astaga, awesome stuff, begitulah, tranformasi

I, Assassin. @ Kamis, 20 Desember 2012

A Tribute to Triumph @ Rabu, 12 Desember 2012

Label: motorcycles, original, poem, tribute, triumph, writing

@ Rabu, 01 Agustus 2012

there's a snake up y butt -- or so it feels like. @

mari saya jabarkan terlebih dahulu beberapa kata yang mungkin bisa mendeskripsikan beberapa minggu kebelakang dengan lebih detail dan masuk akal daripada kalau saya curcol ngalor-ngidul tanpa tujuan seperti yang saya sedang lakukan saat ini. mager malas deadline santai ngebo jadi, saudara-saudara, nampaknya sin- sebentar. abrupt interruption committee wishes to speak. "What's worse than having mosquitoes tryin' to suck the bloody hell outta ya? Having mosquitoes suck the bloody hell outta ya and ya tryin to slap the little fokkers dead but instead end up slapping yerself - hard. No blood, just hand prints." oke. jadi, saudara-saudara, nampaknya sindrom kemageran luar biasa yang kadang2 suka kambuh kambuh lagi beberapa minggu yang lalu, dan sampai sekarang belum berhenti. TAPI BERKELANJUTANNYA PARAH BANGET WOY. Gw aja gak habis pikir gimana gw sendiri dengan begitu banyak tanggung jawab dan tugas dan LPJ dan bab II kartul yang baru kelar 4 kalimat bisa dengan nyantainya ngaca jam 9 malem dan bilang, "Halah besok juga bisa dikerjain, ikut sahur kan?" JREEENNGG gw bangun jam 4, makan, mandi, sholat, sekolah. Sampe sekolah, bukannya nyelesain tugas, tau ngapain? Tidur. And to think back in tenth grade getting enough sleep (say, more than 4 hours) felt like a frickin miracle. Kalau gak tidur, gak ada kemauan buat menggunakan waktu dengan baik dan efsien samsek. Yang ada gw dengerin lagu, ngelamun, tidur sambil duduk berbantalkan kupluk bokap, atau baca The Wolf's Cub (somebody kill Isabelle I beg ya). Dan seremnya lagi, sampe sekarang tanggung jawab gw masih terasa ringan. Maksudnya ya, gak ada keinginan buat menuhin kewajiban gw, gak ada rasa2 takut suatu saat nanti semua itu bakal jadi beban. Gw pengen takut, tapi rasanya kayak kebagi dua. Yang satu bilang, "selow aja brooo" dan yang satunya, ".....oke lah." begitu. gak, gw gak MPD. Gw bukan Gudbrand/Daniel/Sindre/Uriah, bukan. (maaf, baru baca The Redbreast-nya Joe Nesbo. Tinggal 5 halaman tapi udah bisa nebak akhirannya kayak apa (gatau juga sih.) TUH KAN BACA NOVEL AJA DITUNDA-TUNDA ASDFGHJKL DAFUQ IS WITH MY LIFE) tau ah. mau makan.

Label: bah, diary, high school, idup, Life

AND I SHALL COUNT THEE AMONG THY TROLLS. @ Jumat, 08 Juni 2012

Jadi, pada suatu hari, z ulang tahun yang ke tujuh belas.

...........

*hening*

Honestly tho, I'ven't a single frickin idea of what to say. Maksudnya, ya...waktu gw ultah ke 16 juga gak se-magical yang diagdang-gadangin orang. Gak ada OOOH ANDA SUDAH DEWASA YOU'RE GONNA BE ON FRICKIN MTV atau 'ayah dan bunda merasa kamu siap menghadapi dunia.' Gak, gak ada hal-hal fantasis semacam itu.

Waktu ultah ke 16, yang saya ingat adalah saya bangun pagi, kepala sakit karena malam minggu (kebetulan waktu itu hari senin) dihabiskan marathonan film-film Kiefer Sutherland, mulai dari Flatliners sampai Young Guns (kebalik ya timelinenya -_-) padahal seninnya, wait for it, UKK FISIKA.

Ya, saudara-saudara, disaat berminggu-minggu sebelumnya saya sudah merencanakan hari yang indah dan hujan dihabiskan bersemayam dikamar dugem pake soundracknya TRON: Legacy sambil main puzzle/gambar/ngerjain tts kompas/ngemil, yang saya telan malah perpindahan cahaya dan bukan Cheetos.

Jadilah hari senin itu saya bangun agak kepagian, sekitar jam 3-an, dan hal pertama yang saya lakukan adalah main komputer.

Ya, saudara-saudara, nampaknya saya lebih cinta tumblr daripada masa depan saya sendiri.

Dan yang pertama ingat (catat ini, ingat) bahwa hari itu saya ultah adalah mbak saya yang kebetulan mmang agak insomnia. Jadilah saya bukan orang pertama yang sadara bahwa hari itu saya sudah bukan bocah 15 tahun ingusan yang kerjaannya ngupil diam-diam dan nyoretin buku cetak dengan gambar-gambar absurd Sam Flynn megang elektron.

Ortu, seperti biasa, mengucapkan 'selamat ultah muahmuahmuah' kemudian ngasih uang jajan. Berangkat naik Pak Saiin, sampe sekolah nothing but galau gara2 udah pasrah gak bakalan dapet nilai diatas 60.

Pulang-pulang makan bakso.

Nah, kebetulan mungkin Allah SWT agak kasihan gara2 ultah saya tahun lalu yang agak suram, jadi dibuatlah Rabu kemaren itu hari yang somewhat special.

Jadi ceritanya begini. Beberapa bulan yang lalu, XI IPS 2 disuruh bikin drama buat tugas akhir bahasa inggris. Nah, setelah diskusi super lama dan super nggak efisien, dipututskanlah judul drama tersebut adalah The Three Musketeers. Naskah sudah jadi, konsep panggung sudah jadi, kendala tinggal satu.

Gak ada yang niat latihan.

Sebetulnya bukan gitu juga sih. Mungkin karena entah kita terlalu sibuk menggabut dan siap2 UKK atau gurunya yang memang sedang sibuk ngurusin pernikahan (besok lho, kondangannya) jadi terlantarlah drama kita ini. Baru 2 minggu sebelum hari-h kami baru mempersiapkan segalanya.

Dengan saya, sita zahra macmanus matarani binti ario wirawan, di kursi sutradara.

Sebetulnya semester 1 udah pengalaman jadi sutradara. Tapi gak pernah ada cerita nyutradarain drama panggung 45 menit dalam bahsa inggris dengan dialog shakesperean dalam waktu >10 hari. KURANG DARI 10 HARI LHO MASBRO. Dan hebohnya gak ketulungan. Bayangin, satu kali karakter ngomong bisa 4 baris sendiri. Sebenernya bukan sepenuhnya salah scriptwriter (yang terdiri dari 2 orang, @astrapios sebagai chief writer dan saya sebagai asisten khusus adegan gombal), temanya memang dari awal berat (tadinya mau bertema Johnny English - dibatalkan lantaran yang dicalonkan jadi monk demam panggung berat). Belom ngurusin kostum dan properti. @nadyanz dari dulu super setia ngurus properti, jadilah anak2 properti semua berbondong-bondongke mayestik beli kartom, abus, dsb demi bikin kuda dan pintu pub serta tetek-bengek lainnya, 3 hari sebelum pentas. Dialog bagi yang tidak hafal dihimbau untuk improvisasi. Jadilah, diantara 6 kelas angkatan 10 Daswira SMA Labschool Kebayoran, drama XI IPS 2 satu-satunya yang tidak mengundang tawa.

Entah saya harus sedih atau jutru bangga, karena dari awal gak ada rencana nih drama lawak, cuma mungkin aktor2nya dipilih yang lucu (neza sebagai Milady dan Jordy sebagai Athos - ini udah pol banget parah) dan agak off-character, but they pulled it off in their own way which made it pretty special. Dan itu seharian drama, mulai dari jam 1 siang ampe jam setengah 6 sore, full pentas 6 kelas. Ditambah dicubitin/diselametin orang seharian juga serta kebanjiran request traktir, it was, by far, one of the best days of me entire life.

Sebetulnya bukan fakta bahwa saya senang ultah say diingat orang. Tapi fakta bahwa Allah SWT mengklimakskan tahun ajaran ini dalam satu hari dimana 1 angkatan berkumpul di ruangan yang sama, main pedang/nyani-nyanyi galau/menggila diatas panggung, dibwah timpaan warna-warni balon dan cat; dan ada perasaan tenang dan puas waktu negliat semua adegan tumpang tindih diatas satu sama lain. It felt like a present.

and you know what's even better? This.

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I didn't think my friends would actually do this for me. I mean really. Last time I got this kinda stuff for a brithday present was a whole canvas of teachers' testimonies compiled by this dude who's got a crushon me since 7th grade. Which was creepy, because there's this story in which I fin him rummaging through Holland Bakrey lookin for a cake, but seeing I busted his ass wet, he bought me a boxful o' chocolate pastries instead.

Kinda reminds me of how screwed up I used to be back in middle school. Socially, I meant. high school makes me feel entirely at home.

Jadi, ehem, to recap the year:

HAL-HAL TERASOY YANG TERJADI DALAM RENTANG 6 JUNI 2011 DAN 6 JUNI 2012:

1. Sita Zahra Matarani masuk IPS gara2 waktu ditanya mau IPA atau IPS jawabnya Bahasa jadi sama Bu Epi ditanya lagi, "Hei kau, pilih yang ada saja, mau IPS atau IPA?" jadi saya bilang, "Yang mana aja deh, bu," dan Bu Epi menjawab dengan, "!#%$#^%#%#$%%^$@#!#@(*)%%$"

2. Sita Zahra Matarani dan @Astrapios menulis dan menyutradarai 2 drama yang dua-duanya mengandung unsur banjir darah dan cinta makan ati.

3. Adam, yang umurnya baru 11 tahun, 12 Oktober depan, jatuh cinta setengah mati pada trilogi the Godfather, dan belum bisa ngobrolin hal lain selain Al Pacino, perseteruan Corleone/Barzini/Tattaglia, betapa besar perjuangannya menjadi Don New York di Game PS2 Godfather, dan begging-beggin minjem novel The Godfather milik kakakknya yang masih belum ngizinin lantaran takut basah kena air waterjet gara2 dia suka bawa buku ke kamar mandi. It's official. My brother is awesome.

4. Saya jatuh cinta pada The Boondock Saints.









Ya, dua-duanya. Saya tak peduli film kedua jelek atau tidak. Filosofinya masih sama.

And shepherds we shall be, for thee my Lord for thee, power hath descended forthfrom thy hand, that our feet may swiftly carry out thy command. We shall flow a river forth to thee, and teeming with souls shall it ever be. In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sancti.

God Bless Troy Duffy.



5. It's a tie: Kartul saya berjudul Pengaruh Organisasi Kriminal dalam Politik dan Pemerintahan Internasional, dan sekelas sama sesama fangirl The Walking Dead, dan sejak channel2 film tv kabel dicabut, dia jadi nge-spoiler abis-abisan tiap episode dengan imbalan didonlotin film2 horor. #canijust #omg #brbdyingofawesomeness

6. Saya dibolehin golput sama ortu nanti pas pilpres.

Jadi seperti itu. Life recapped, birthday informed, therefore I shall now retrea to my humble den, bingin on Google Earth.

Demi apapun, Google Earth > any video game existing in the universe.

This has been the epic words of a disoriented boondockfan in academic crisis.

Over and out.

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